Tuesday, July 22, 2014


If you have read my blog or know me personally sleep has never been my friend.   And lately it has gotten worst. I feel exhausted all the time especially in the last month.   Over the years I have taken numerous blood tests, gone to a sleep clinics, a chiropractor, naturopath,  acupuncture, tried different diets, read books to improve my sleep quality and nothing has worked.  I am 34 and I feel like I should have way more energy then I do.   I have been having this problem since I was around 12 years old.  One thing I need to start doing is going to bed and waking up at the same time.  But this can be challenging since I work shift work.  But thankfully I work a lot more night shifts then morning.  I am going to really try to focus on this.  But I think it's time to go back to my doctors and discuss other test options?    Some thing is not right and it needs to be fixed stat!   I also believe if I am get this under control it will help with my weightloss.  

I want to start blogging more.   And I am going to bring back my weekly workout updates and weight in.  I also will start giving myself monthly challenges again.  

How is your sleep quality?   Do you wake up and go to bed at the same time?  Even on weekends?  

Saturday, July 5, 2014

What if?

Lately I have been pondering about positive self image and wondering if loving myself at any size could be possible?   For years and years I have been fat shaming myself.  Knit  picking at all the things I hate about my body but forgetting all the things my body has done for me over the years.  Whether it is playing sports, yoga , walking or running.  Maybe if I didn't focus or obsess over my thunder thighs, cellulite butt,  my crowded teeth or my double chin maybe  I wouldn't consume large amounts of food to comfort me when I am feeling  down about the way I look or disappointed when the scale is not going the right way.   What if I accepted every part of me the way I am at this very moment?  Maybe then, I would stop abusing my body by binge eating.