Monday, April 29, 2013

Unexpected surprise!

I had a busy week with work, helping a friend move for over six hours, lunch date with my sister, dinner with my foodie group, golf for this first time this season and more. It has been a great week minus the fact I have been super tired. I'm not sure what's going on but I am trying to listen to my body and rest when I can.

Rob surprised me with two tickets to see Jillian Michaels! It wasn't my birthday or our anniversary he bought them because he knew I would be over the moon to see her. ( I have been watching the biggest loser since season two religiously ! ). I am super lucky to have such a supportive man in my life. I am still in awe of this!

Weekly workouts

Monday- bodyflow (60mins)
Wednesday - moving (6hours). I am counting this as a workout because I was pretty sweaty doing it lol
Friday- running (35 mins)
Sunday- golfing/walking (150 mins)
Running (30 mins)

Weight in is tomorrow (Monday). I am curious to see what the scales will read.

How was your weekend?

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

WI Results/Pictures/Stats

I am happy to report I lost 2.7 pounds this week.  It was challenging, I had a lot of cravings but I stayed under my weekly points and worked out a lot!   I received another 5 pound sticker today at WW.  Total Lose for the Month is 10.8 pounds. 
Weekly Workouts
Tuesday- Running (35mins)
Wednesday- Body Pump (55mins)
Thursday- Running (35mins)
Sunday-Running (35mins)  Golfing Range (30mins)
Training for my 5 km has been a love/hate battle.   I have completed a total of 11 runs and I will be heading into week five of my training.  This is the first time I have been extremely disciplined.  In the past, it was inconsistent and I lacked the drive.   It is nice to know I can even surprise myself with my accomplishments.  I am starting to see why people run for years and years.  When I am running I stop thinking about the mindless stuff we all think about that causes us stress.    For me at least, I am so focused on my breath and getting through the run it feels like mediation.   Yoga is the only other activity that I feel this way. 
I am missing one run in the Nike running app but otherwise these are my totals since I started.   If you don't have this app, Download it.  It's amazing :)   

Turkey Meatloaf Muffin

Here's the recipe for the turkey muffins I made last week if anyone is interested.

It is finally starting to feel like spring.  

|Final Thoughts:   My heart goes out to all people who were effected by the Boston bombing.  It makes me sick to my stomach to know how much damage two people can affect on some many lives!     I am glad the suspects are found and people in Boston can sleep a little easier and slowly start picking up the pieces of this awful event.


Tuesday, April 16, 2013

WI results

I'm down 1.3 pounds this week. :). For a total of 8.1 since I started two weeks ago. I got my period this week so my emotions have been all over the place. The joys of being a women. My cravings have been intense the last couple of days but I am tracking everything. I cooked some turkey meatloaf muffins tonight only 3 points each or around 110 calories they are really yummy!

I was able to jog three times last week. I was hoping for four since I missed one the following week but I am still happy with my accomplishments.

How is your week going???

Saturday, April 13, 2013

I don't understand???

I am feeling pretty upset at the moment. I can't call anyone because its the middle of the night. Rob is sleeping and he has had a long day. I don't want to eat my feelings so here I am. I don't understand why sometimes people either dismiss me, don't get me or treat me badly. It's hurtful, disappointing and makes me feel like I don't matter. I know I have a lot of faults but that doesn't me I am a bad person. I try to be there for people us much as I can. The one time I stick up for myself it blows up in my face and makes me feel worse! I know if people treat me badly that i should say the hell with them but I am a person who cares a lot about my friends and family. I would never intentionally go out of my way to hurt them. I know I have to suck it up and think of all the good things in my life and the goals I am working towards.

But why am I feeling so....... I can't even explain it.

Change in life is a given but why does it have to feel so uncomfortable??!

I sometimes feel like I am trying to live in a world that is not meant for me. Working at night and being awake late at night is very different then the norm. And a lot of people just don't get it??? People don't understand why I jog at two in the morning. I work till midnight or later and
I want to commit to my goals. If someone who works 9 to 5 goes for a workout after that doesn't seem strange to me. Going somewhere for breakfast at 930am which is normal for a lot of people. Would be like me asking the norm to go for a cup of coffee at 1 am but people don't  see that either because they don't care or they think something is wrong with me!

I don't even know if this makes sense but it had been weighting on my mind.

I'm not saying that no one gets it but the majority does not. I'm not sure why it still bothers me what people think of me??? I guess that is something I am still working on.

This helped and I didn't binge :).

Sorry for the rant....

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

WI Results

Both My friend and I were very nervous to step on the scale but we totally rocked it! I lost 6.7 and my friend lost 5 pounds ! Every time you lose 5 pounds you receive a star :). I was so excited that we both received one on the first week!

Weekly workouts

Monday- Bodypump (30 mins ) aerobics (20 mins)
Thursday - Jogging (30 mins)
Sunday- Jogging (30 mins)

I am going to try to cook spaghetti squash  tonight. Hopefully it turns out. There is a first time for everything maybe my bf will even like it! Stay tuned

Monday, April 8, 2013

Exhausted but I still....

This week was a long, tiring and lucrative work week.  I worked over 40 hours and I literally didn't stop moving!   For those of you who don't know me.  I work as a  waitress and this week was one of the busiest weeks of the year.     I worked 1pm to 10pm today and by 9pm I couldn't stop yawning.   ( Which is weird for me, usually at that time I am wide awake.)  I was also sick of serving such large groups!   At one time I could be serving over 40 to 60 people at a time!  Yes I know that's nuts and I really don't know how I keep everything straight in my head.  I amaze myself sometimes. lol
 yep that's me!! 
Even though I worked a nine hour shift tonight, as soon as I got home I changed out of my work clothes put my running clothes on and heading outside.  Was it a tough run??  Yes.   Did I run super far??  no.  Am I happy I did??  Absolutely !! 
I am in week two of C25K,  I did my second run tonight.  ( There are three run to complete each week)    I was only able to complete two runs this week but I will make up for it and run four next week :)    
Weight In tomorrow.  I kept with in my points and I also had flex points left over, 30 to be exactly.  I also earned 22 activity points.  
I really have no idea how much I have lost as long as it goes down I will be happy.
How was your weekend???

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

The past six weeks have been very emotional.   Winter in a whole sucked!  I just wanted to crawl into a hole and that's pretty much what I did!   
The Bad
- Half way through March I stopped doing my monthly challenge.  I just had no motivation
- I ate my emotions for the last six weeks
- I stopped weighing myself
- I became extremely depressed
The Ugly
-I currently weight 253.  (enter sad face here)  that is + 9 pounds for the month!  And +15 pounds in two months!   I haven't seen 253 in over two years and I am mad at myself! 
- All my clothes are feeling super tight even my undergarment which is a real bummer!  I refuse to buy bigger clothes and I can't believe I let myself get this far!  
-  I basically gave up on my diet because I have been so frustrated at seeing the scale go up and down for over a year.   Especially since I have been  trying so hard to do all the right things.   I even went to the doctor to get blood work done and everything was perfect except for my cholesterol which was on the high side. 
- My self talk has been  atrocious.  I wouldn't talk to my worst enemy that way.   I call myself ugly, fat, disgusting,  a loser,  stupid and sometimes I don't understand why people even want to be around me.   I am so hard on myself especially if I make mistakes. 
The Good
- I have been going to the gym at least three times a week
-  One of my friends wanted me to join Weight Watchers with her.  We went to our first meetings last night.  That's when I saw that horrible number on the scale.  But over all it was a good meeting and I think we can really support each other.  ( I have been to Weight Watchers in the past but I am willing to be open minded and give it 100 percent!)   I think going to the meetings will help me stay accountable.
- I recently bought a book on emotional eating and positive self talk.  It has been eye opening, when the author describes examples in the book I feel like I am reading about myself. 
- I finished my first week of training on the program: Couch to 5 Km

-  Rob and I bought a brand new car!!   It's so shiny I love it!
I am extremely happy that spring time is here and  I am optimistic that the next several months will be so much better. 
Thanks for reading. 
P.S  I am going back to weekly weight ins. 
P.P.S  My monthly challenge for April is to run three times a week +  to take a multi- vitamin everyday. 
Thanks for reading.