Wednesday, October 31, 2012

High's and Low's

Last week was well???   Interesting, fun, sad and emotional. Here's a highlight of the past week.
Monday-  Worked (not very exciting)  but during work I went into a texting match with one of my best friends and not the fun kind.   It is a long story but to make it short,  I am hurt and angry with her and very sad that after 25 years of friendship we are going through this change.  I basically had to tell her  this friendship is bring me more pain then joy and I needed some time to process how I am feeling. It wasn't easy for me to be honest but I don't  regret it because I don't want to lose the friendship and sometimes it is best to have some time apart.    
Tuesday and Wednesday- worked a lot of hours
Thursdays-  Work till 5:30 ( it was my last day at Carefor it was hard to say goodbye to my clients)  then went to my very first clothing swap/ recycling party.  Met some new people and my friend who hosted the party  put on a great spread of food.    I also scored a few items for myself and my cousin. 
Friday- Went shopping with my cousin to help her pick out a new fall wardrobe.  We were able to find everything she was looking for and had a blast in the process.  I even bought a sweater for myself.    Side note:  I was showing my cousin the clothes I picked out for her at the clothing swap they were in my trunk and I accidentally locked my keys in the car!  oops!  My step dad was  nice enough to pick up the spare keys from Rob and drive them to mall for me. My hero! 
At night we went to Saunder's Farm it was fantastic!  We went on a haunted hayride.  I have to admit I did scream a few times.  We also went into a haunted house it was pretty creepy but I loved every second of it!  Another thing I can cross of our bucket list.
Saunders Farm

Saturday- Worked till 6pm, then rushed home to get ready for a Halloween Party.   Pictures to follow.    I absolutely love dressing up for Halloween and over the past few years I have gotten Rob into the Halloween spirit.     I drank a tad too much and ended up going to bed at 3am!  
I was a Lady Bug

I am dating Hulk Hogan!  I just loved Rob's Costume :)

Sunday-  Crawled out of bed at 7:30 a.m to get ready for my 5 km race ( I know!  I am crazy who parties the night before a race??   But to be fair I didn't realize the race was Halloween weekend until after I signed up for it and once I committed I do it!)   

About 10 minutes before the race I started to get really nervous but I knew once I started jogging I would feel better. The horn blew and we were off.  The first half of the race was bad I was  judging myself by what everyone else was doing but once I hit the 3 K mark my mind set changed and I starting having positive thoughts.  I starting feeling proud and thankful that I have a healthy body to accomplish this no matter what speed I was going. 

 I ended up finishing at 46:36 that is over three minutes faster then my last run in May.  I was so close to my goal of 45 minutes. I will get there next time :) 
Thanks Rob, Mom and Richard for trying to cheer me on!    We went out for breakfast and basically I crashed for the rest of the day. 
Rattle me Bones 5K (My third 5K)

So Sunday was my highlight of the week and yesterday was my low of the week.  I couldn't stop crying it started off with me weighing myself and let me just say it wasn't pretty.  I am actually up 4.6 pounds for the month which to me is heartbreaking.  I am upset that I try and try and I do not see the results I want.  I basically had a pity party and was feeling fat and ugly.   I am also very upset about the fight I had with one of my best friends and I feel she doesn't understand me anymore.  I am sad that I am not further in life and that we are in debt.  I know this is not earth scattering especially with what is going on on the world right now but it just sucks that I  try so hard to improve myself and be a better person and I do not see the results.  Overall it was just a really bad day. 
Today I am feeling a bit better and trying to be thankful for all the wonderful things I do have in my life.  
What was your high for the week?  What was your low? 
Thanks for reading! 

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Weekly Workout Update

Due to my busy work schedule I only worked out twice :(  I know it's a excuse but I feel so tired these days.  This week will be better!  I have a 5 K race on Sunday.  I am looking forward to it but I am a little nervous, I just feel like I won't be fast enough. 
Weekly Workout Update
Monday- Dodgeball
Thursday- Jog (4K)
Total Calories Burned:  640
Starting this week I will add a video blog once a week.  Updating on Monthly Challenge, Workouts, Food and my weigh in!  I hope it will add a little something extra to my blog. 
Have a great week!   

Monday, October 22, 2012

Trying something new bare with me :)

I hope you like my video it's my very first one!  It took me over two days to figure out how to compress a video but I finally did it with a little help with google.  What did we do before the Internet I have no idea?? lol 
I  am making a silly face lol


Sunday, October 14, 2012

Wanted to share this with you!

The other night I was looking through pictures and I came across a picture I had taken in May of my arms and the difference between them.   I decided to take an updated picture and this was my results.
 I am over the moom that my hard work is finally paying off and I am getting closer to what I want them to look like.   I have been extremely self conscious of my arms  for years I would never wear a tank top even on steamy hot day!  So this is a big deal for me....  
What body part do you love the most?  And what body part do you want to work on? 
Thanks for reading!

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

One year anniversary and my 100th post

For the past few days I have been thinking about this 100th post.  I can't believe it has been over a year since I wrote my first post!  I started thinking about what did I accomplish?  How much weight do I lose?  How did I grow in this past year?   What has changed for the better?  ( I will answer these questions in a bit) 

While this is a weight loss blog, to me it is so much more!   It's a place where I have learned about who I am. A place where I can feel safe and have no judgement.  Even my writing has improved.  I am extremely insecure about my writing always have been.   My friends always teased me in middle school and high school.  I tend to miss words and my grammar is poor.   It is time consuming to write this blog because I have to reread my posts about 5 or 6 times then have Rob proofread  it to make sure they're are no mistakes before I hit the publish button.  You may ask, why do you blog if it doesn't come easy to me?  One it holds me accountable and two it helps me release all the feelings I have on weight loss and life in general. 
It is now  been over a week since I have posted.  This post has been really emotional to write because I really thought I would be further in my weight loss journey.  Last year at this time I weighted 229 pounds.  Currently I weight 237.5.  I am up 8.5 pounds and this year has been a struggle of ups and downs in my weight.  Although I gained some weight.  I am happy that I have kept off the 36.5 pounds.  I could have easily gained all the 50 pounds back so for that I am grateful.   Before this post gets to be to much of a downer,  I went back to the beginning of my posts to see what it was, I wanted from this blog.   I wanted to lose weight of course but there was also things I wanted to accomplish or improve about myself.  Here are some of them  I have completed or are getting close to completing
1.  I wanted to try a Spin Class. 
Not only did I try it.  I have gone to the classes regularly over the past year.   I have completed over 130 cardio workouts from August 2011 to August 2012.  Working out has become a routine in the last year.  I regularly go 3 to 5 times a week and do not know what I would do without it.  Since I was sixteen I have gone on and off to the gym but for only 3 to 6 month spurts and then I wouldn't go for a year etc.   I have been consistently going for the last two years and this a HUGE accomplishment for me.   
2.  I wanted to see definition in my arms
I have really focused on doing weight training especially on my arms  and I definitely see a change compared to last year.  They are more toned  although I am not completely satisfied, it is a step in the right direction. 
3.  To complete 20 full push ups
I can currently doing one full push up but last year I wasn't even able to do a half pushup.  I am able to 20 half pushups easily so I'm hoping by this time next year I will complete this goal. 
4.  To fit in to a size 14
I am not able to fit into a size 14 pants however I am able to fit into a size 14 dress.  So I kind of completed this. 
5. To have no back fat
I have notice just recently that although my back fat is still there it has gone down a considerable amount. 
In July, I started doing monthly challenges and this has been one the greatest things for me it helps me stay motivated and accountable.   So far I have followed the 100 mile challenge, the Ab challenge and currently I am doing the No fast food for the month of October. I am always searching the web for new ideas. 
Rob and I also did quite well on our summer challenge we were able to completed 8 of the 11 of the activities.  Check out the tab if interested in knowing what we did. 
For my next 100 posts.  I want to continue setting monthly goals, lose 50 pounds and complete at least 10 things on my goals list.   This year I learned a lot about myself.   I realized I will fall but always dust myself off and get back up again and that is quality I'm thankful to have most of all. 
I would like to thank all the people who have followed my blog and commented.  It helps me more than you know.  You guys inspire me everyday. 
A special thanks goes out to my wonderful, loving and supportive mother who has read every single post I have ever written.  I am one lucky daughter!

And lastly to my patient, super supportive boyfriend Rob.  Thanks for editing my posts and loving me no matter what!