Wednesday, April 15, 2015

update weight gain

It's been a struggle since I got back from Cuba.    I am the highest weight since I started this blog.    It makes me feel sick and frustrated!  Last time I stepped on the scale I was 264!   I gained 20 pounds since I came back from down south.  Something is not right?   Since my last post I decided to cut any foods that I binge on.  Since the middle of March I have refrained from eating chocolate bars, chips, donuts, cookies and ice cream.  Pizza is the hardest to let go.   I have been eating more bread and fried foods since quitting those items above and I am wondering if the bread is making me bloated?   Even if I gained a ton a weight I am happy to break the cycle of binge eating.   I have been doing weight training for the last 5 weeks plus I started running.   My Fitbit sends me a a weekly update on my steps which is roughly 60000 to 65000 steps.    My diet is not perfect by any means but something is not right if I am gaining that much weight while still be pretty active.  My sleeping has been horrible lately and wondering if that is  the cause???  Who knows?     I am going to continue being active, eating right and hopefully something will change.

Today I started a 30 day online yoga challenge with my cousin and her friend.  So far so good and hopefully this will help make me feel calmer.   Also the days are getting longer and it finally feels like spring.     On Sunday Rob and I had the day off together so we decide to take a walk to the farmers market.  In total we walked about 6km.  It was so nice to be in the sunshine!  

Thanks for reading my rant!   Happy Spring everyone :). 

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

I run because......

Following my last post I have decided to say good bye to sugar but not like I usually do.  Like smoking I am being gentle with myself and slowly saying good bye to all my "close friends "foods that I binge on.  Ice cream, chips, donuts, pies, pizza, cookies, chocolate bars, bagels and cakes.   I have set a quit date March 21st first day of spring.  Just like smoking I no longer want these foods in my diet and healthy life style.   I know this will be harder than quitting smoking but I know I can do this.

I just finished my first week of weight training , I found a nine week program in "The Oxygen Magazine" and I am liking it so far and I am definitely feeling it the next day.   I haven't been very consistent with weight training in the last few years and I wanted to see if you could get actual results if you followed a program all the way through.  I will keep you posted how everything goes.  I worked out four times last week and I am feeling much better.  

I also started running as well and bought this sweatshirt lol

have a good week everyone!  

Sunday, March 1, 2015

Things on my mind

I am not sure if any of you have smoked before?   But lately I have been thinking about addiction in general.   I quit smoking 61 days ago.   I am happy not to have to go for that nagging smoke every couple of hours to help with my nicotine withdrawal.  Nicotine sure has a hold on you.  I enjoy not smelling  like smoke, saving money and having stronger lungs.   My sense of smell is even stronger than before and I noticed my teeth are whiter as well.    I have been gentle with myself in this process.  I used an e-cigarette without nicotine to help with quitting.  I used it as much as I wanted at first.  Now I barely use it anymore.

 The first month I quit smoking  I also gave up sugar and bread and was eating clean.  After the first month I slipped up a few times and now after coming back from my trip from Cuba  I  am eating sugar like it is going out of style.    I have had to make a few tough decisions in the past month and basically I just didn't want to deal with them.  So I ate instead more like binged.   The first problem was I had to say "no" to being a bridesmaid in my friends wedding because I cannot afford it.  The plane ticket alone was 800 dollars.   It was a hard decision to make because she has been my friend for over 20 years.   It was just bad timing really.  Rob and I had planned a trip to Cuba before she even got engaged in September.  Plus with me going into my slow season at work there was just no way I can afford a trip for this upcoming October and I refuse to go into debt when Rob and I have been trying so hard to get out of debt.    I finally dealt with the issue on Friday.  I am still feeling guilty about it but I know it is the right decision and I have to let it go. 

The second issue was the last of our debt.   Together Rob and I in the last 5 years have paid off over $35000.   We have about $16000 left and I just wanted to consolidate the rest of it at a lower interest rate so we can pay it off even faster.   It took 5 times to going to the bank, numerous phone calls and lots of frustration.   In the end after a month and half  we finally got what we wanted.   But it should not have taken as long as it did. 

Yes those are the reasons I ate but I need to learn not to use food for comfort.  I guess my problem is and maybe someone can give me some insight.    I am either great when I am following an eating plan but as soon as I eat something sweet.   I go off the deep end and eat everything in sight!   I have tried moderation and it doesn't work for me.  But then I read articles that say you should have everything in moderation otherwise it leads to a binge!   With smoking it  is clear.  I stop smoking cigarettes.  If someone is an alcoholic they quit drinking.  Or if you have a problem with gambling you quit it all together.   If you can't see it already I am really confused.   lol    I was thinking of making a list of all the foods that lead to a binge and just stop eating them all together.  I was also thinking of going to an concellor to see if they have tips to stop the cycle because I growing very tired of this and just want it to stop.     Having a sugar addiction is one of the hardest to stop but I am willing to try.    

Thanks for reading. 

P.S I had a great time in Cuba!  It was a nice break from the weather we are having in Ottawa, Canada.  If you are interested her are some pictures from our trip.  Cuba Pictures

P.P.S.  On Monday  I am starting my 12 week training program for my 10km Race in May


Wednesday, February 4, 2015

200th post

I can't believe its been over 3 and half years since I started typing my first post!  Next post I want to write all the goals I would like to accomplish in the coming years. Thanks for reading and watching!