It has been awhile since I have written on my blog partly because I am not sure what to write. I have been extremely frustrated with this whole weight loss thing. I have literally been at this for 5 years. Sure I may have had a couple weeks where my head hasn't been completely in the game but even then it has been at the back of my mind. You can see that from my blog posts, Facebook posts, Intragram and my fitness pal. I have tried goals of the week and monthly goals sometimes I failed and sometimes I succeeded. During this blog I have ran 5km, 10km and most recently a half marathon. I have tried new exercises classes and several different healthy eating plans. Weight Watchers, South Beach, Gluten Free Diet and the 17 day diet. And I am not one of those people who try for a couple of days. I commit myself to months and months to each plan. But still I sit at present at 248. I am up over 22 pounds since I first wrote my first blog post over 3 years ago. I am grateful to have met many people in the blog world and follow your proud moments and struggles through your own journey. But at present I am exhausted! of trying and trying and not seeing the results! I am not sure what to do anymore. This post is not meant for you to feel sorry more me but I am stating some facts. If you thing there is anything you think can help me please do.
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
I completed my first half marathon, two Sunday's ago. I accomplished two things 1. To complete it and 2. To not be last. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done. The first 10 km actually wasn't too bad. They had seven cheering stations along the way and it was wonderful to see all the spectators cheering us on especially when the rain came down. I will get to that in second. There was over 25,000 runners in the Army Race. 12,000 in the 5km and 13,000 in the half marathon. All the proceeds went to the ill and injured in the military. Over $300,000 was raised this year.
I can't remember if I told you about how I signed up for the race? ( If I did skip to the next paragraph.) One night after reading one of my favorite blogs "That loud Redhead" I went to checkout the Army Race website, to sign up for the 5 km . I had just finished reading how she had entered too late for her half marathon. And of course the same thing happened to me. 5km was SOLD OUT! They had no 10Km in this race series. So the next best thing was a HALF MARATHON. I had told myself I would never run that far of a distance. But feeling a bit loopy I said why not? and paid the fee. I posted it on Facebook for all my friends and family to see! So there was no turning back. I am too stubborn! Did I mention I only had two months to train? I know, I know I am nuts!
I think I just lost my marbles lol. I have been in such a rut these past few months. Go big or go home! Once I commit to something I am in. I guess I better start training. Lol #100happydays #day69 #halfmarathon #fitfam #prayforme!
Back to the race. The first half was tough but I was feeling good but once I hit around the 13km mark It went downhill from there my left hip starting hurting and it started raining, more like pouring to the point my clothes were soaked and weighting me down an extra 5 pounds. Then my headphones stopped working during the flood but luckily from past races I brought an extra pair and thank god they worked! I need my music :) At one point on the left side of the road the faster runners could tell I was struggling and they started cheering me on! Telling me, I could do it! You are doing great! mean while I have another 8km still to go. By the 15km mark my hip really started to hurt. I decided to speed walk the last 6km because I didn't want to injury myself. By 17km it was all mental I was tired, in pain and just wanted to stop!! But I kept I telling myself I just did 17 km! I can finish this. I thought a lot about my grandfather in the last 3km and asked him for the drive to push through. He was in the navy in World War II and he passed away a couple of years ago and I would like to think I get my disciple and stubbornness from him. The last km, my hand started to tingle and when I looked down one of my hands was three times the size of my other. I started to freak out because I was so close to the end. This women beside me saw that look of horror in my eyes and I explain what was happening she said it was normal and to just raise my hand above my heart level and wave my hand a bit. I am sure I looked idiotic but I didn't get care. I just wanted to cross the finish line. The emotions I went through when the metal was placed around my neck by someone in the army was a feeling I can't describe it was happy, tired, exhausted and proud all wrapped up into one! I am happy I completed it.
My time was pretty awful but I never stopped once. It took me 3 hours and 45 minutes I burned 2700 calories! No matter what my time was I finished and no one can take that away from me. I am a half marathoner :)
Monday, September 15, 2014
I was hoping to lose a pound but I lost .6 (total of 12.6) I have been on this healthy lifestyle for a long time and I just want to be a healthy weight already! I would like to think I am a patience person but come already! Sometimes I just want snap my fingers and be magically thin! A girl can dream right? I find I have been weighing myself daily sometimes twice a day and seeing my weight fluctuate is also not good for the mind! As silly as it may sound I decided to put my scale in the trunk of my car and only bring it out for weigh in. Hopefully this will help with my sanity.
Wednesday- Running ( 37 mins)
Sunday- Hiking (1 hour 20 mins)
Monday- Running (43 mins)
I have been working a lot more hours lately and I walk well over 10000 steps a day. Hopefully this will help with my weight loss. I know I just have to keep eating healthy, working out and drinking my water and eventually the weight will come off.
I can do this, I know I can! One foot in front of the other :)
How do you stay motivated?
Wednesday, September 10, 2014
Last Thursday I was stressing out about the humidity forecasted on Friday. (It was 40 C and to my American friends that equals 104 F) Why does that matter ? because I had to work as a waitress and serve food and drinks and every time it is super humid I am a sweaty mess especially on my face. It's embarrassing and really besides medication there is not much I can do. My coworkers are always commenting on it which causes more stress and more sweating! I decided instead of worrying about it I would go to the pharmacy to see if they have anything helpful. I did this at two am but sadly the only products I found where for underarm, the palm of you hands or the sole of your feet. I did not want to risk putting it on my face and breaking out on top of it! At this point I am feeling miserable and wanting my anxiety to go away! I wandered the store to find my drug of choice which meant anything with sugar. I ended up buying a bag of 20 mini chocolate bars knowing full well it was a bad I idea! I had about 15 bars before I came to my senses and realized I wasn't even tasting what I was consuming. And it wasn't making me feeling any better. I grabbed all the empty wrappers and had enough strength to throw the rest out. I logged all the chocolate bars in my fitness pal. On top of that I had purchased a big bag of Pop Chips. As soon as I logged my calories I opened the bag and dumped the contents in the garbage. Overall I am proud of myself for the end result. And I hope this is another step to conquering my binge disorder. It is not easy to write this, I feel ashamed of my behavior but my hope is for someone to read this and realize they are not alone in this battle.
In other news I gained 0.6 pounds last week. (Total loss 12 to date) Beside the binge I had on Thursday I have been good with my workouts and eating. Tomorrow is weigh in day and I am hoping to see a loss!
Thanks for reading :)